Ya'll know I just graduated last May 14, 2010. Days and weeks after that, I am a total bum at home, doing the same usual stuffs a "tambay" normally do -> sleep, wake up at 10 for brunch, computer, eat, watch TV, take a bath, sleep, computer, eat, watch TV, and the sleep. Then the routine repeats itself the moment after waking up.
Now, a company, where my dad is working, opened job opportunities. I unwillingly accepted the job I got in because it would matter to my dad, who has been serving the company for the past 32 years. Now, I have to wake up at 4:30 to get ready for work by 7, then go straight home after 4, [which only happens when I don't have OT]. The good thing about it, I get to go home in just 20 minutes, or less.
The workplace. Of all the people I have to deal with, I am with people I can't talk to like what usual friends do. Maybe because I am new, and that all of them have partly accepted each others' differences already. I can't come up just easily to talk about my work because they're all busy doing their own thing for the company. I don't know if they just hired me because they need someone who could help them and make their job easier, or because they know my name and that they're expecting something from me. They're all friendly and accommodating, I must admit. But I am feeling differently. I am adjusting to the environment. Yes. I don't have experience in recruiting. Yes. But I told them in my interview that I am willing to learn.
I am feeling this way maybe because I am pressured. I don't like to work in a company where everyone knows my name and that they're expecting me to do quickly and good. I just can't complain despite the bucks I will be receiving [which is below minimum, so don't ask].
Everyday, I find myself problematic, in a way that I'm not doing anything but to sit and wait for instructions, while all the employees are doing their work. Like, what the hell am I gonna do now?
"I love hours after 1. Sort of a relief that half of my day is done." I tweeted this last time, and it's really true! Let's see what will happen in my future with the company. Spare me some time 'coz i really really need to learn for my first job.
